For Dylan
Ice sheets rise
from the waves
of the frozen lake.
On loop, geese rake
the gray sky
in starlocked Vs.
You choose
now to come
to me
as I swell
with fracturing
waters.
What are you
doing: here
inside the home
you never came to,
mouthing your
whatever?
I madly
want you
to right it
but the lesson’s
to hear
what a man
tells you he is:
sand nailed
to the desert,
ship leaked
from a bottle,
bottle tossed
in the dry wash.
My choler
at having to skim
without you:
when you speak,
I want to force
your teeth out,
make little rockets
of blood
between us.
Birds leave
the fish frozen
and dead. You’re
holding me
and then
a first—
you ask,
but your please
splinters,
salts me
hollow.
I loved, I defiled
–St. Augustine
No small power, this: to find
the nail that has been hurting you,
the want to bid you back
from undone to our bed.
I keep country with a tarantula
poised in a hardened epoch,
amber gravity greater
than the horned heads
tracing the ravine beyond
this window. Gusts from their nostrils
are wools to comfortably die toward,
the thick locks against a fire.
There is no track back to how
just we stood, inhaling
the salt coast like those born
to inherit a name.
No small power, the noose of you,
art of my grossest fear. No surprise
that in the dream
where I bear you, we admit more
than ever: we have a hundred ornamental
children. A god sneers & the fall
breaks all their necks.
biography
LILLIAN-YVONNE BERTRAM is the recipient of a 2014 National Endowment for the Arts Poetry Fellowship and author of But a Storm is Blowing From Paradise (Red Hen Press), chosen by Claudia Rankine as winner of the 2010 Benjamin Saltman Award. Her chapbook cutthroat glamours is available from Phantom Books. Her books a slice from the cake made of air and personal science are forthcoming from Red Hen Press and Tupelo Press, respectively.