A Colony of Ants Attack My Wrist
and I Just Let Them
Because I am babysmooth and in my thirties and their teeth is a parade because they want to
praise the labor of one another and because they tongue the smallest hairs to find honey and
because I do not tell them that what they feed their children is mostly terror and sin because I am
fat from doughnuts and poorly shot pornography and because I want other marks besides ones
that suggest I am always falling because I believe in the hickey and any bruise that comes from
the lips because I am bread and space and because I respect the size of any hunger because I can
be terrifying and generous and offer blood to the small and the living because one day I will be a
cathedral and I will have glass instead of skin and everyone will see who is praying and who is
asleep because maybe the sermon could have been punchier or used more sugar but everyone
knows the priest means well and makes great coffee and pastries and once adopted a really sick
dog, which he lets everyone pet, which we all agree is something worth saving.
Self-Portrait as a Wisdom Tooth
If this is proof that I have become
something other than myself, more
than a stone that crowds close
to the throat and its clot
of obscenities, a point furthest
from a kiss, leaving the jaw afraid
to clamp down on any sweetness,
to bend or grind meat into salt,
then let the head shatter each time
I collide against myself, recoil from
my ghostly hum. I do not own
the blood that passes beneath
me, but I threaten its alignment,
the mouth and its horoscope, root
every thread of gossip. Let me carry into
the brain a new wilderness, deer
that shed their antlers in inconvenient
fields. I know that the skull
possesses its own starlight.
I know what poisons permit some
to sleep, that rot can be the same
word for sugar, that extraction
means to break without apology,
to say you were never meant
to be in this place.
biography
ALBERT ABONADO is the Director of Adult Programs at Writers & Book, and teaches creative writing at SUNY Geneseo. He has received a NYFA Fellowship for Poetry. He is the author of the chapbook This is Superbook (H_NGM_N Books). His poems have appeared in Big Lucks, The Margins, Pleiades, Waxwing, Zone 3 and others. He is the host of the poetry radio show Flour City Yawp. He lives in Rochester with his wife and a hamster.