Worth is the wrong word

 

 

The most beautiful thing

 

 

in the world is something

 

 

I don’t already own.

 

 

If I want anything, what

 

 

I really want is debt.

Forgive my carrion ways

 

 

 

This time last year

 

 

it was this time

 

 

again

 

 

& I still didn’t have

 

 

what I wanted.

 

 

*

 

 

I think aloneness inside a relationship

 

 

can be defined as

 

 

sometimes

 

 

I was waiting for a text from you

 

 

while reading a text from you.

 

 

*

 

 

Or how sometimes, talking to you

 

 

was like getting the dialtone of the spirit.

 

 

 

*

 

 

& anyway there isn’t a word

 

 

that describes what I feel

 

 

when the rain comes down

 

 

for the fourth night in a row

 

 

& the only shirt I packed

 

 

is sheer & we

 

 

aren’t sleeping in the same room.

 

 

 

*

 

 

Tonight, I want to destroy my body

 

 

with the body

 

 

being shorthand

 

 

for the recorded history

 

 

of my mistakes.