Lo Kwa Mei-en

Transmission from the Factory

 

 

Alarms go off when I’m online   Obedience is on

 

Offer   Sir, the doll I am is a fine ditz

 

But later, with you, she becomes my

 

-Self   I’m blinking and blooming by

 

Computer nightingale   The information is so rude

 

It doesn’t hurt   The doll I am is a remix

 

Divining the feminine at the speed of data

 

In the end I swipe the dooming glow

 

Erasing the universe, and a breasted, lunar

 

Wave shatters to find a shudder on TV

 

Forget ardor, bro, and after that, armor—

 

For atoms stay and anthems go, beau

 

Glib gears reproduce my body in www but not

 

In world, not yet   I’m the flesh market

 

Hell sent back for blinding it   And say I did

 

Say it was a lark   If I wake to bliss

 

In fact, I do not show my face   Just

 

Feel that   The wonder is the blister

 

Just gets bigger when I rip me off

 

Us   The doll I am is a film rated Q

 

Kissing forehead for infinite hours in a finite

 

Plane   Do I feel feeling   Or fucking up

 

Lo, I burn on the shelf but it’s just light, less

 

Angry than anxious, my art   I have no

 

Money but in a neutral machine that hones

 

On my mettle its slurry honey and on and on

Aubade for First-Generation Kids

 

 

Z-particles make a hive of the distance,          buzz, buzz.

Young aliens leave a mother’s ship to translate the deadly

 

Xeriscape and live                    as citizens roll in the ideal rolodex,

Wander the earth                    as the hands of extinction fall asleep   in a row.

 

Vents in the universe vomit the years, and boycott versus maglev

Usage takes years to argue                   with my parents in lieu,

 

Terribly,           of a common habitat.

Space before us, space between—its excess

 

Regrets me, an identifiable object, and my face, a traitor

Quizzed by her own questioning.                                Q:

 

Pools of activity imply planning. Children in a kingship

Only obey when necessary. You thought you could undo

 

                        National knots. When?                A:        Alien

Maiden reporting for nothing,                    madman ma’am

 

Looking right through me.                                    I cannot call

Kept at arm’s length the measure of sacrifice, making mock

 

Juvenilia of me,           the offspring raised on wheat and OJ.

I wither down to poem what I cannot plead, a bouquet of narcissi

 

Hurting to be shaken at the sky.          What hurts like a kilo of flesh

Grown quickly in winter                     in the year of gravid splitting?

 

First-generation kids crowd the blatant, alien fields of

Electric pollen. A mother’s yellow coat is a pheromone

 

Dredging the world’s distance in information’s cold-

Call home, and hope,               or a scent half as tragic.

 

Bombastic as an egg in my mother in her mother’s womb

Am I awake.    What time is it, ma?     It’s me—bee-sting, little brava.

biography

LO KWA MEI-EN is the author of YEARLING (Alice James Books 2015), winner of the Kundiman Poetry Prize. Her poems can be found in Black Warrior Review, Boston Review, Poetry NorthwestThe Kenyon Review, and other journals. She is from Singapore and Ohio, and lives and works in Cincinnati.