A heavy brown moth in a water cup, my grammar sinks & freights in its own bacteria
after a night spent counting ways to stay awake. During this self-sentence I cut me down
the middle, two decomposers bopping to a beat the shape of a window, of someone else’s
rib. What happens when you open it? Candy dribbles from its bloodless shell. Nobody
wants it any. You’ve meat on your lip, dziadek, you’ve come a swollen eye on you. I’ve
learnt your purple onion trick, how it never was an apple. You pressed it to my palm and
offered me a bite, dug a splinter ‘til it bled but never found the wood there. I was a child.
Then: every day, on the bus, the same seat, another newspaper into which I puddle dark
forgetfulness, then watch it gush like shrapnel into space. You pressed a thumb up to my
forehead, dziadek, death shushed you with a finger. The black branch shook gold over the
borough, a rogue blonde that locked us into bed.
Daylight pith. November from breath then fistblue on three panes. None dim numb bust
in as I pit moth and bent fog on Alder Street in id-endowed after. The cinema fins the
window: white dots on a black screen, water. One euphoriant idea of earlier progenitor
crepitating in cellular frame. In the laurel, lantern. Was a child shadow.
Learn: slip hand into dirt for clam. Come up frothed in minutes earlier. Twenty six jars
left out in grass, milky in cold. Room’s window’s off-yellow squirts into tall among
stones, all rendered in units the eye built to perceive. Lanterns and krill on darked black
cord. Drifts over blue, crutched by fire. Earth crowns on its back, part scoffed dream.
Loses units like strands of hair.